emily jones

there is a knot in my hair that I cant get off my mind : just like the grocery countertop : it sees everything in store & still needs more, all the bad with the good & keeps going like it should

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mouths are universal. as human beings, we are consuming before we are ever really alive. a lot of emphasis is placed on the lips in magazines, especially in beauty advertisements. these women who are supposed to be making statements are actually not speaking for themselves at all. instead, they just serve as metaphors or representations of an idea. but what is even more interesting is when I removed their lips, similar to what they do to themselves when they are whisked onto the page, I found that what was revealed spoke to what these women are actually saying: beneath is unrealistic, truthful, nothing at all, colors, & patterns. they say only what we allow them to say & what they know we want to hear.

I am not going to stop. I wont ever get enough. we live from moment to moment on passing conditions; everything changes.

& I dont ever want to forget this.

it hurts only when you notice it.
if you work at it, it will eventually come out.

=may my inner head not spoil my outer one

“the opposite of love is not hate, but indifference”

this is a quote by Elie Wiesel that we talked about & around in class today. would I rather be hated or feel indifference from someone that I love? nothing is ever as black & white as these extremities, but indifference has no doubt caused much harm politically, socially, historically, economically, globally. it is like the piece by Gilbert & George, which says

“are you angry or are you boring” 

to me, offers a similar need to stray away from indifference. we need to feel something to be okay just as long as it is something. if that is anger? then be passionate about it. if it is lust…go do it. as long as you are not indifferent, you are not committing suicide. as long as we are using our brains & formulating ideas or opinions, we are not a waste.

wonder i have been feeling like a different person from each day to the next….we Are different people each passing day..every minute actually every second…we change, we grow (physically) & learn (mentally) & feel (emotionally).

never let it dwell, never loose control, never waste it, dont pause, dont be stoic, dont be static, run when you could walk, talk when you could be silent, be in to something when you could be in over your head…..

where were you a year ago?