emily jones

there is always going to be a person who is in it all the way & another person

I feel like on monday I am fated to wait to have my turn under the sorting hat or something…I wish the whole process was like that..I wish someone would just tell me what I should do, what to choose, where to go from here instead of me having to decide because then there is less chance of me failing. but I know failure isnt my fear. instead let it be known as untitled & once again I can put off decision.

roads & hair & commitmenT

S2
A 22
2y 2m

no mind to what is or isnT
detach yourself, completely uninhibiT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0d4CvLH7tFY

sometimes I wish I could yell. say at you things like you left me all alone. you pushed me away at my most fragile of times. I needed you most but you couldnt help me because you were the one that was hurting me.
but it is too late for that it seems. I was too late on a lot of things. who do I really need to please?
this is all too selfish & arbitrary & unclean. not what I have learned & not what I mean.

I was too comfortable & knew only truth.

side effects may vary…I am slowly growing back thicker skin. stop what persists. turned color & wore off. tonight I am happy looking back but dont expect me not to stumble some more before I can learn to watch where im going.

IM ILL EACH OWNS

now that should make me feel proud. has no obligation I realize only when I try to look on the other side. & it does but lacks sensitivity & sentimentity. appreciate but what should scares by what could & turns me around so I turn you down. we found that common ground. I see how you say the mirror reflects twice infinitely. this time will overcome earlier but acknowledge the stranger similarity. we took double the time, the time took half of us. pass me change in pace. since you got that whole lot of it all swarming in & around the place you float in mind. your brain. head. try to hide the used nine & it would have been fine. knot. not tied. we tried. lied; cried; died a little bit. if what was done was what I had done it would be done. over. I owe her. direct me toward directly forward my direction word. all I really have is my word & my hand. found that the pieces make me feel more whole. found that the whole makes the pieces feel me more. indirectly scored. I want to go ice skating with you. lets not sink, lets not think about falling or breaking down as we glide within boundaries around.

so it hurts to sneeze while peeing

is how close human has become to machine. even me…today, when I found out my computer would need a procedure done at its’ check up appointment, I got the same rush of panic feeling that I get when I have to go to the doctor myself.
I guess that is more exemplary of mans’ dependance & connection with their work because all of mine is held here. that leads me to question whether who you are is really what you do. in many cases I think that people see or judge you for what you do & at the same time I think that makes you feel more & more like you know who you are. 

snow, richmond, virginia

I said too much, I say too little
I am afraid I have done too much damage
an acrobatic act I force myself to manage

last week- snow, this week- sand
walking in both are so similar