emily jones

youre pretty far from home, girl. maybe a little too comfortable in your world. the daylight makes it a little better. feeling like you can do anything in this weather. factories, puddles, park girls, twin boys: these are just some of my toys. I think it might be healthy to be uncomfortable sometimes. if not, maybe there is not enough wrong in our lives. not enough to make you realize; make you notice that time flies. I can say with confidence, you know, I have never been disappointed that I decided to go.

I love it here… right now… so much. I think I could do this my whole life.

H & N & M & L & R & B & C & now S too

let my eyes have a rest
all I have seen is a blurr at best
it is that time of day
youre talking but you dont have anything to say
words slip between your teeth
its your own language but you cant speak

more self portraits…

I wish mam was still alive. I think we would get along so great. of all my direct family members, I think we would have been really close. I never got to an age where we could really talk so since her death, I have been really curious about her life. from what my dad & uncle say we would have a lot in common. she used to sew her own clothes & drank straight whiskey & liked animals. I respect how she took life one day at a time. I wish I could go back in time & hang out with her when she was my age. in some ways my sister reminds me of her so that makes me happy.

I dont want to end up teaching art at some university.

someday I am going to hear this music & wish I was young again.

when I am lying in bed, sometimes I think about what happened today in other places. there are so many amazing things going on around us. I think about where all the fish swam or the wind that blew the leaves of a tree that no one will ever see. reminds me how fragile & impermanent life is & how everything is just energy.

thailand: unedited, 2009.

I really dont understand how people let education pass them by.  or how people can just sit & not participate or try to get something out of what they have made themselves a part of.  & then there is the whole money thing; people are paying for these classes that they casually dismiss.  the other day, maybe it has been events or conversations leading up to it, I realized how lucky I am.  I think I have known but I am sure everyone can relate that reality hits you in different ways when you get older.  anyway, I realized how much being able to go to school means to me & how lucky I am to have parents who saved money since I was in elementary school.  they were never concerned with finding happiness in material things which is something that I have really come to respect and value in other people.  my dad has always tried to fix things himself & stops anytime someone has put something out on the side of the road to trash.  my mom would much rather take us someplace where we can make memories than buy us the latest video game or whatever.  blah blah this makes my childhood sound so easy everyone has problems but what im trying to say is education can never be taken away.  it is something that you can never have enough of, you will always truly own, & will do nothing but benefit you.  nothing is so black & white but when it comes down to who you are or what you will have become when you die what is really important?

los angeles, california: unedited, 2009.